Play in the ashes

Ok, I see now that I’ve been in a rut for a few weeks…the past few entries have made that blatantly obvious to me. Now that I realize that I’m going to do something about it, I’m going to get inspired.

Twitter has become an amazing way for me to connect with like-minded, creative, crafty people and I want to use that to my advantage. I’m going to start on a new project; a dress, an apron…something to get my spark back. I know I can make something out of my ability, I just need to go ahead and do it.

I’m also going to re-enroll in Tribal Fusion, I need this in my life and I didn’t realize how vital it was until I gave up on it.

I’m a quitter, I’m known for procrastinating and being irresponsible(just look at my credit score for proof). I have no real reason for being this way and I need to fucking grow up and stop it already. If I feel my creativity draining away in this cubicle then I should be doing things outside of work that inspire, not sitting on my ass watching TV. I want to pay back my debts, start selling my clothing, lose those last 7 lbs, get married and have a family…is that too much to ask for? I want everything and I’m not doing anything at the moment to make that happen, so why am I so sad? I need to get angry with myself for wasting time and get on the fucking ball.

…and maybe stop cursing like a sailor…

 

 

p.s.

Found the purrrfect gift for Jay’s 30^th birthday, the Ion Drum Rocker! Ordering it at the end of this month (even though his birthday isn’t til the end of July). Maybe I’ll throw him a surprise Rock Band Birthday Party to celebrate!